No one really notices how much of an influence their emotions can be to their behaviours and decision making. As someone with ASPD, it allows a detachment between emotions and my intellectual thinking, which obviously has many downsides, but also allows you to view the world through an unbiased lens. And when I say unbiased, I mean truly unbiased, not at all influenced by emotions on a conscious or a subconscious level. This is a complete freedom from the ego and the overall human condition. Not simply the trait of an open minded person who remains judgement-free.
That’s the other thing I have noticed about the average person – they are almost always biased in every way possible both on a subconscious level and sometimes a seemingly conscious level. It influences their thinking, behaviour, preferences, decisions, everything. You may not view this as the worst thing, but it can truly stunt your overall growth as a human being. I’m sure you can all relate to having someone in our lives who in hindsight was a terrible person to keep in your life. Or that terrible life decision you made a few years ago which you look back at and cringe. Or that bad habit you never used to notice but after years it one day becomes so obvious. Do you ever look back at things like these and think, “Oh god, how was I so oblivious to this at the time?”
Hindsight is an amazing thing, and the way your perspective can change over time is evidence of how biased humans are during any given time. That bias is a representation of how the mind works and adapts to different situations. The biases we form are almost the brains natural way of making sure everything aligns with our overall view of life and our place within it. Our beliefs must align with the information we receive, otherwise we feel a natural internal discomfort. This discomfort doesn’t allow our conscious selves to accept raw information, but a carefully crafted perception. It seems the level of which we distort our perception increases with things that are more meaningful and important to us. This could include personal traits, habits, aspects of your personality, or information regarding people close to you. While the brain may still process all information, it could just be that the communication of information to the conscious mind is where the change takes place.
It seems that the brain associates and connects feelings and emotions to almost all information gathered by it. At the same time, biases which already exist from previously stored information further influence the way we understand new information. These biases may be subconscious and work in a subtle manner. However, when your mind works without the influence of emotions and other feelings, it is very easy to see how information perception is distorted. In fact, it is near impossible to ever be completely unbiased with the way in which we think and act.
It can be extremely difficult, frustrating, and challenging to get along with others when your mind does not function with the same emotional system and biases. It can feel as if everyone around you is partially blinded to the full awareness and reality of life. Almost as if emotions are holding them back from a more enlightened view of the world around us. When your brain does not function in the same way as everyone else, it can feel like a constant state of loneliness. As you see everyone around you live their lives in their own bubble, you can’t help but wish you were stuck inside a bubble too, just so your mind can rest from all the mental processing.